shards of a human girl by Anonymous (16, New York)

[Content warning: depressive/anxious thoughts]

no one wants someone so broken they can’t pick up the pieces of the wreckage
everyone wants someone who’s made it through the dark
has harrowing stories about how they faded until there was nothing left
then found a miracle hidden in shadow 

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but when it’s real?
when it’s hovering above you and choking you until you can’t breathe?
when it slams you against a wall until you can’t take it anymore and break
jagged, sobbing, collapsing on the bathroom floor
heaving so violently you pray your organs will be expelled from your body
every speck of light piercing your eyes until it’s finally dark and you’re alone?
no one wants her