self love by Cindy Tran (16, Massachusetts)

[Content Warning: references to eating disorders & self harm]
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wake up / brush teeth / tie hair / go to computer / open document / stare at cursor / open notebook / look at ideas / cross them all out / open linkedin / compare yourself to everyone else / apply to a job you don’t want / call this bulking self love / wait to hear back / cry at rejection / go to kitchen / open fridge / close it / call this starving self love / go to bed / stare at phone / write message to friends / delete it / call this deprivation self love / stare at ceiling / go to computer / open college apps / write essay / close computer / open it again / delete the essay / call this productivity self love / open linkedin / compare yourself to everyone else / delete linkedin / close computer / delete yourself / call it self love 

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