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a space for youth writing on mental health & identity
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a space for youth writing on mental health & identity
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![]() I forget the last time I set foot in a park I forget my old friends Their laughs and smiles and mannerisms I forget what my grandfather looked like He exists solely in sepia tone portraits Painstakingly
Instantaneously printed on papers Crammed into books and folders I forget to even put The bookmark on the page Leaving the continuation of the story To a veritable dice roll by fate I forget when I stopped writing and painting When worlds stopped existing In the back of my mind Only to bleed onto paper through a ballpoint vein I forget what I want to be in life I usually forget my own birthday Three years running I often forget I’m perceived by others I forget my own friends are there And some days, oh some days I forget my own name Only for a split second or two Or three or more And I’ll have a small existential crisis In the self-checkout of a grocery store Surrounded by equally indifferent and forgetful People with cloth hidden sneers and smiles and frowns And tired sad eyes Around the block From nowhere in particular I sometimes forget who I am Driving in a car before the sun rises To nowhere in particular Running from monsters That are no longer under the bed But strapped into the passenger seat I forget that I am going to have to be someone That I’ll have to be an interdependent Set of functions and beliefs and aspirations I forget to tell my friends I love them I forget to allow even myself The truth because my god is that scary And that forgetfulness holds me together Like a paper mache boat In the middle of a stormy sea with waves growing Higher and higher Rising and falling Waning and rushing Crashing and crashing, Crashing, always crashing But I want to forget so much more Because to forget something You must know it first Comments are closed.
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