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a space for youth writing on mental health & identity
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a space for youth writing on mental health & identity
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![]() Mother always picked the seeds left behind After The threshing to cook dinner. It was when the flail had snapped the grains Off the necks of sun-fried wheat That the cold cauldron was warmed. ![]() Zhao Li: I’m still trying to get used to the damp stickiness that clings onto my arms and dew drops that roll down slick walls in the morning. Even years after moving here, I still expect the wintertime to bring the pinkness of swelling beneath my nail beds, the painful flaking of skin. The absence of ‘wind-colds’ is still oddly out of place, ones that smear red rashes on browned cheeks and calls for chicken bone broth with the biting tang of ginger. Instead, the humidity clings fast, climbing up the walls like stubborn vines and breathes hot air through open windows from where I work. ![]() I came from a land of swirling, colorful paintbrush strokes From smooth, grass fields like vast, green carpets rolled out over the Earth From the soft, gentle twang of our flowing music, our beautiful language From dense, diverse forests, soaring mountains, and roaring rivers ![]() dust is what we all become. rain falls and mist rises, ice stands firm, but the atoms cling together resiliently as they're made to shift and stretch and mold into being. they drown in each other. dust is what they all become-- bits and remnants, flakes of substance. particles can swirl in wind and breath and they are free, afloat, individual. they bend the rays of sun that crawl into bedrooms, hanging heavily in the still air. they skate over silently beating hearts and sticky fingerprints on glass. they escape through the most minuscule passageways. I found a rubbing tine last Valentine's ![]() bouncing under rubbish brush in the Californian gob of a Sun. It asked: When did you last feel clean bone, hun? When did you last pass your hand across a piercing point and remember that Icarus became his own grave? ![]() watch, now as the poet relinquishes her hold on biblical blamelessness; grab the scalpel. carve the line. hold the gingham-pressed girls tight beneath little hyacinth blooms- fluorescent flickers inside. ![]() [Content warning: rape and abuse] Drip. Drip. Drip. The water plops against the side of the bathtub again and again and again until the noise is nothing but an absent, muffled droning in my ear. The silence in my sauna seemed to strip my clothes away before I did, luring me into this tub where my tears can disintegrate into nothingness. Mere additions to a larger homologous model in which I can sink and burn and dissolve. ![]() Sel sent me a postcard from Paris, made a phone call from Montevideo, and mailed a package from Nepal. I wrote back to her - my fingers wrapped tightly around the wooden colored pencils she sent me last summer, the ones engraved with poorly translated Romanian phrases in gold. ![]() House. And you said you wanted a house. I was not sure what you meant by the house. I have a lovely, two-story house with potted vines wrapped around the fence. Sometimes you went to buy flowers to put in our home. And every time you came back with a bouquet of flowers, you cried. ![]() silky ripples pool up beneath the nape of Liberty’s neck under this characteristic Arizona blend of heat & spice & dust & song; she covers artificial canvases with bloody opposition i turn to the sky. ![]() Each word you spoke, each thorn you flung Used to pierce my fragile heart Each string of happiness hanging on By the force of dreams in the silence Yearning for more stillness and delusion ![]() Before carving ( yesterday / Monday morning / this moment but one year later / the curtains where dust & shadow stop waltzing ) into (an extinguished birthday party / the Autumn breeze CATHARSIS from Greek κάθαρσις, the notion of ‘release’ through drama (catharsis (sense 1)) derives from Aristotle's Poetics. ![]() the gods speak of me in whispers say I am selfish insatiable because I cannot hold this unfettered tongue (it is a dangerous thing / child / to be this loud) ![]() These days-- These days I roll out of bed with an innate weariness that stretches back to the beginning of time, back to the creation of humans, though it is always with a sense of individuality that this funny feeling takes up space in my mind, and it seems as though I’m the only one who has ever felt low. These days I listen to classical music to remember that it is autumn: Bach, Beethoven, Chopin. There are the newer composers, too. Marianelli. Alexandre Desplat’s Little Women. Bluebird. These days I feel a different kind of loneliness, the loneliness of watching things go by and by, like tracing the blurry outlines of buildings through a moving window. ![]() There is this one line my dad would always sing After spending hours under the glistening Florida sun Sand in my hair, salty air, running into the water just for fun He told me that the waves knew every thing, They were full of questions and answers to anything ![]() last week, i sat on the curb between our two houses i lit a red and thought of you and summer and my brother’s crashed car and everything else that once lived right there where i sat. ![]() Time and again I find myself fascinated by the falsehood of memory. It seems that each detail of the past is blurred and indistinct in my mind, without a solid form to cling to, regardless of my continued determination to take a particular moment and press it precisely into the various folds of my brain. |
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