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a space for youth writing on mental health & identity
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a space for youth writing on mental health & identity
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![]() Trigger Warning: Suicidal Ideation i look up at the stars and i look and i think and keep searching, why are those little lights in the sky more important than my desire
to be up there with them? is the sound of a supernova louder than the shattering of the china on the marble floor? is the red of the giant hotter than the sting of the blood pouring out of my fingers? is the weight of the blackhole more destructive than the loop in my mind where my car gets hit by a speeding truck and lands upside down 500 feet off the course of the highway as it becomes encapsulated by thirsty flames? i fantasize about dipping my toes into boiling water, and as i climb into the pot, i’ll remain unbothered heat that begins to suffocate me. i’ll watch the layers of fat underneath my skin flake away into oblivion, and i’ll cry sweet, heavy tears. i want ice crystals to form on my skin. i want my blood to retreat to the frigidness creeping through my epidermis. i want my tears to follow suit. i want my eyes and my lips to be sealed as my mind endlessly wrestles with my mortality. i want to learn to surrender to the will of nature. and i want the ache of my impermanence to bring me peace at last. Meena Puram (she/her) is an Indian-American writer from Cleveland, Ohio. Her work has been published on Ice Lolly Review and she now works as a General Editor for The Trailblazer Review. She's passionate about environmental justice and considers herself an avid feminist. In her free time you can find her reading feminist literature, doodling, or watching video essays. Comments are closed.
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