I look into the mirror and see not myself but eyes, a nose, and a mouth that resemble mine.
I raise a hand up to my face.
My reflection does the same.
She taunts me.
I look at her and see not myself but all that is wrong with me.
I see not my hair but the grease that suffocates it.
It hurts to shower.
I see not my eyes but the bags that weigh them down.
I can't sleep.
I see not my teeth but the yellow that taints them.
Acid causes decay.
I see not my arms but the fat that still hangs.
I see not my stomach but the rolls it so stubbornly retains
I see not my hips but the stretch marks that distort them.
I see not my thighs but the scars that haunt them;
Don’t go swimming.
The scars remind me of the girl I’m looking at.
The reflection that inspired them.
The loathing that followed.
Who hurt her?
My reflection answers,
I close my eyes.
I see not.